Can't sleep. So I thought I'd do a little blogging. Aah.. It helps. Don't mind me...my thoughts are in a jumble as always and that is how i write it on here.

Can't believe I've neglected this place for half a year. Something about xanga...just can't seem to abandon it. I'm laying in bed, just thinking, zoning out the playing music. Not much has happened over the past few months except dearest sister Lien got engaged! It was a beautiful engagement and I'm so happy for her. Aside from Chi Hien, who was on her own 20 or so years ago, Chi Lien is the first of the bunch to move out and live on her own. I'm wondering what it's going to be like for the rest of us. I wonder about myself. What's the future got in stored for me?

The job is going great and I'm getting a lot of good feedback on my work. I'm hanging out once in a while, but it just seems like the same ol' same ol' now. I feel like I should be doing something more. Today feels like yesterday and so will tomorrow. I'm wasting a lot of my time on Facebook =/ (shouldn't be using that word on xanga). I feel like I'm two different people...when I'm with my family I'm whacked out and probably annoying to a point. When I'm at work I'm super quiet and when I say something everyone goes "she speaks!"...that's how it was in school too "everyone shut up! - Le's giving her speech." If I wasn't uncomfortable enough...put me on spotlight. Thanks.

I've changed a little bit over the years, which is reasonable because time does that. Going out more than usual and not feeling the same scenes and routines anymore. I think I need to take a step back. Need to take a little time out to do a little self improvement. Project Me has begun. I quit Kdramas- I realized I was wasting a lot of time doing that too. Working out started yesterday. Taking a week off of work to visit the little ones in Florida. Will be less active on FB...possibly won't even log in for the whole of October!

In the process of brainstorming for a new blog.

A lil bit country...



Good Nite. Gonna squeeze in a few hours of sleep before I have to wake up in the morning.

I wish I were in Florida with the family to see him for the last time as they send him off Monday. Even though I won't be there in person, I will in my heart. Nice, joyful, and lively. The times that we spent together as a family were some of the happiest.

I will miss the small talk we have when he calls to see how we're all doing, or what a great father he was to his kids, or how he never left my sister's side after all they've been through. If I learned anything from this guy, it's to enjoy good food. I wish that he stay around to see his young children and grandchildren grow.

Anh Khoi, we're gonna miss you. I'm glad you became a part of the family, it's sad that you had to leave us so soon. Please watch over us. Love you brother, you'll be missed dearly.